Classmate's question: How can you write all of that down, but can’t read it out loud or talk?
Talking is not the same as thinking. I am able to write my thoughts because pointing is much easier for me to do than talking. You can talk without thinking very hard. It seems so easy for you. I think talking is so hard. It is a major struggle to move my lips and tongue to make the words I want to say come out. I want to be able to say what I think but what come out are usually stim words like "potty" or requests for food. These put me in a place of people thinking I am only capable of simple thought. No life is complete without thoughts of people, feelings, and love. People often think autistics are incapable of relationships, love, and empathy. That is furthest from the truth. People like me also want friends. But I am not able to join in easily because I can't talk. I wish I could. Language is no problem for me. That’s why I can write well. People need to know that autism is pretty hard to live with. It separates me from others by making my communication difficult. But if you can be patient with me and put me in your lives, I can be happy living with autism. People make my life meaningful.
Philip's submission for the Autistic Self Advocacy Network (ASAN)
Autism Acceptance Month last April.
"i like being autistic because i am more in tune to things people don't usually notice. i am smart and observant. i like leaving people amazed when i talk to them on my ipad and they weren't expecting me to know so much. i like spelling my thoughts because my words people can see. i like being moved by music and lines of poetry. i like appreciating nature. i like beauty in God's creation. i love worshipping God in my spirit. i love that God gives all people worth. my life as autistic is meaningful."