I am wanting a chance to explain my movement as a result of my autism and partial apraxia. I understand I am quite an annoyance at times. People have a hard time being patient when I run away or seem like I was ignoring them. I am always listening even when moving. I can be trying to sit and work. I am trying to do my best. People have a task for me but I can't make myself sit to do it without getting up from my seat a lot. I am trying to control my impulses to run from a difficulty. Difficult things are concentrating hard to each day meet people's expectations and not easily being able to. I tear apart being unable to succeed so I flee. I really need to be understood to feel more comfortable and at ease. Then I am more able to stay still. It also helps when I am used to a situation. I can calm myself. I am more able to do this now that I can communicate.
I also have difficulty feeling my body in space. I move to try to not feel like disappearing. Perhaps I reach for objects to tap to dot my place in my environment. I piece together lots of stimuli to find my place in space. I am kind of like an alien built for a different planet. I am instead trying to make this world my home by adapting as much as I can to the rest of mankind.